Decided

Strange was the path
Strange was my decision
It looked like a dream
Now it is reality

Was it meant to be
Different from every angle
Different from every distance
Not as it seemed in dream

Decided to go along
I changed my world
Chased out so many
Welcomed so little

Now you arrive
Unwelcomed
Changing my world
What I have become

Why cannot I be
What I decide to be
Why should I be influenced
Why is it not simple

My path
Is not mine anymore
Its not the way I wanted
Its not the best

BhaShe

NO MORE

Afraid? NO MORE
I know I have to stand on my own and fight
I now fairytales are just amusing stories
I know now, nothing else should matter

Tears? NO MORE
No one wants a share in my sadness
No one wants to know what I am going through
No one cares about my happiness

Being Hurt? NO MORE
No one wants to listen to me
No one is bothered about my silence
No one cares if am alive or dead

Botheration? NO MORE
Only when I am smiling, I am approached
Only when I show off, I am considered
Only when I pretend, I am admired

Pain? NO MORE
All I care is about myself now
I am the only person in my world
I decide my life, and my terms

Emotions? NO MORE
Take a back seat, go hide your self
You are not required any more
Brain rules my world now

BhaShe

Flower

I had a beautiful flower with me
I grew it with my own effort
It was beautiful and attractive
Colors never fade, smell never dies

I wanted you to have it
I offered it to you
I had no other intention but,
To give you what I possessed

You were attracted so you came close
You liked it and wanted to have it
You hesitated and walked away
Doubting, I have hidden intentions

All I wanted was you to have it
I want nothing in return, ever,
I get happiness in giving it to you
If you get happy accepting it from me.

BhaShe

Nishabd

This one says, he is 60 , she is 18, some love stories are never meant to be understood. May I make a claim to have understood the love story?

This is another unusual types of movies in bollywood. Starring Mr. Big B, Revathi and Jiah khan. It is shot in a very beautiful location and made me fall in love with the place where it is shot.

Am not going to write the plot, as that you can get on google any minute. So…, Jia seems to have had a rough childhood missing her dad. Her mom is a divorcee and is now moved to living with another man. Jia hates her step dad. She is a very free spirited girl… like an 18 year old should be. Careless, free, fun, witty, attractive and sexy. She has interest in writing and has a dairy where she writes her poems and hides it from the world.

Vijay, is a 50+ish old photographer. He owns a tea estate and his house is in the midst of the estate. Amazing natural beauty. He treks around capturing the beauty of nature in his camera. Happily (??) married for 27 years. His daughters friend is Jia.

Jia comes to Vijya’s place for holidays. She has some strange kind of interest in Vijay. Very easily some girls show interest in elder men and change their world bit by bit till it actually turns upside down. Here too it happens that way. This starts with Vijay capturing the beauty of Jia in his camera, while she was playing with water. Jia looks really amazing, attractive and sexy to his eyes. She notices him clicking her picture and forces him to show them to her. They get close with each other slowly and steadily.

I think because she missed the love of her father, she tried to get close with Vijay to get that love she missed. But when you are beautiful and sexy and attractive, and you are asking for love, coziness and comfort from a man, it can easily be mistaken. Vijay has some strange attraction towards this young girl. The story moves forward, keeping one engaged. Anybody can guess the plot looking at the title and poster. It is that predictable, but the story line is very tight and keeps the audience involved.

There is an element of lustful love that appears between these two. They do pillow fight, share poetry, develop images together, they get cozy but the feelings attached keep changing and growing. They say, love cannot be hided, no matter what. That’s what happens here too. After this, there is a lot of drama.

What made me like this movie is the concept that an 18 year old girl, who tries to find father’s love in a 50+ old man and falls in love with him. As she is free and naughty, she does not hesitate to get intimate with him and kiss him. She does not hesitate to show him how young and beautiful she is. Show him how sexy she is. Also, how easily the old man’s life is turned around, learning an 18 year old girl has fallen for him. He dresses up better, keeps up a happy mood, he cherishes every second he spends with her.

What happens in the end is a tragedy. I cannot think of a better ending though. She comes like tsunami in his life and goes off like a tornado. This movie is WOW!

Sowmyashree Gonibeedu

Questions

You tell me you are there when I need you
How would I know that you are what I need?
I love you so much, that I need you always

How do I know when all should I reach you?
Emotional, mental, physical, financial, what crisis?
Are you the number I should put on emergency contact?

What would you do when I reach you in need?
Listen to all my sad stories and console me?
Provide solutions or be the solution to my problems?

How will you relate to me or to my problems
When you are not in touch and are long gone
When I reach you only when am in need and not otherwise

What if, you are not able to be there when I need you?
How would I take that additional disappointment?
Complain about your non-availability with you??!!

Would I need you when am happy or is it only for pain?
How many times would you wipe off my tears with patience?
Won’t you drift away, bored of being my punching bag?

You tell me you are there when I need you
Will you really be there? How can I believe you?
Being just a phone call away is not being there always…

BhaShe

Being Krishna

You have been named after a wrong god
Neither creator nor the demolisher you are,
You are the naughty and the nice, Krishna

You are tall, dark and attractive like him
Long and strong arms that could
Go around any girl for seven rounds

Same innocence on your face
With deep and lit eyes
And cute and naughty smile

Your eyes speak as if they never lie
Your smile lights up any dull face
Your lips are like the fresh petals of roses

When you look or talk
It’s no less than music from flute
Girls gather around you

They give you all they have
You are at liberty to choose
You make all of them happy

A kiss to one and a hug to another
Just hold hands and walk otherwise
You give what any girl wants and desires

You have some magic in you
That makes any and every girl want you
It’s like nature, and you obey its rules

Does that make you a bad boy, a flirt
No it does not, as you are capable of
Being with only that girl, who is with you

Will you ever belong to anybody?
Will you ever commit your heart to one?
Guess, you are never a one women man

How can you commit, when you have had so many
How can you be loyal, when the world is just beauty
How will you stop, when you are offered great pleasure

Who cares about loyalty and commitment
When you are so charming and amazing
All that one can get is a great deal

You never hurt anybody
Or deny and disappoint any pleasure
You are what is called ‘making everyone happy’

How right or how wrong is that
Is not my question to ask
No one seems to have acquired that right on you

You are a messenger from the Gods of Love
Or is it the Gods of Lust, Sex and Temptation
But you are not human, that’s all I know

You provide with what is natural
You make anybody’s world a better place
You spread love, peace and happiness

I do not wish to wish you anything
You have all that anybody asks for
All I say is, it’s lovely to see love around

BhaShe

Secret Temptation - Ad

“Sorry boys”, that’s what the ad says, but sorry ‘secret temptation’, your current ad on how to get a gift from a boy is lame.

I was upset watching this ad. Are we not in the century where women is independent, self sufficient, strong and level headed? Using a deodorant to attract a boy is different, and that we have seen in some ads, but to get gifts from him, how insensitive is that? Is this ad trying to portray that girls are cheap and do this to get gifts from boys? I think it is a very generalized and inappropriate remark on women.

Look at the ad once again. Starts with “how to get a gift from boys”. Wearing ‘secret temptation’ is the way to do. So, to get a gift, that too from somebody you work with, go to him and tell him that the gift was good. When he is puzzled about the complement, tell him it might be the other guy in the office. WOW!! How does people come up with such mean ideas? And again, it works, the guy gets a gift box. Superb!

Can’t we have some more sensible ways to advertise the product?

This, for me, is a very B‘Ad’!

Sowmyashree Gonibeedu

One sided

One sides is when it is pure
Like river which doesn’t flow back
Like rain drops that only falls from the sky
Like sunlight that gets beamed out

Mountains don’t ask rivers to come back
They give all they can and stay happy
Clouds never ask for anything in return
Pour out all they have and fly away

Untold, not conveyed, neither from eyes, not heart
Just feel it inside, let it flow, glow and burn
Preserve to cherish and not exhibit to enjoy
Cover oneself with the beauty and addicting aroma

One sided is when it stays so pure
Stays in heart forever, stays for life
Like, making dream part of real life
Love is at its best, when it is one sided.

BhaShe

Perfume: The story of a........ (unusual boy)

This one, I watched it long time back.

While switching channels I caught up with this one, and it interested me, so watched it completely. Majority of my movie watching happens like this. I watch TV very much, but follow very few programs, and that leaves me with switching lot of channels and watching a lot of movies. Anyway, let’s leave that part there.

This orphan boy with amazing capacities to identify smells is the concept of the movie. He can smell things from distance and say what it is. I was thrilled by the concept itself. How can one think that people can have supernatural capacities in smelling and that to be taken as a concept for a movie. He grows up without exploring the world. When he does, the movie takes it turns.

I knew that all of us have our own smell. I figured it when I was in school when I was with my cousin. She is a very beautiful girl and she had/has an amazing smell. It’s not her soap, not perfume, or anything she uses. It’s her natural smell. This point was proven when I read a survey/study that said the more beautiful the girls are, better their perfume is. Some blindfolded test and sampling and everything was done to come to this result. I agree that we have our own natural perfume.

Coming back to the movie, when this grown up comes out of the factory he was working with and goes out to another city, he finds so many smells that he is thrilled. His life changes. He finds out how to make perfumes and whatever he does is a huge success. The smell we carry does have an influence on other people, and hence the perfumes he creates, became always wanted and they make this boy learn new tricks and new things about life. He goes out in search of perfumes and whatever he does to create the most perfect perfume is what is the concept of the movie.

Shot nicely, beautiful places, good acting and good hold on the script. I would love to watch this movie any number of times.

Sowmyashree Gonibeedu

Online Store Ads

Flipkart

Kids with adult voices, witty with innocence makes this ad very likeable. Be it the laptop ad, or the one emphasizing on payment on delivery or the faultlessness of the products, these ads are just entertaining.
The laptop ad where 2 cute gals are in a parlor getting their face and hair done, talk about boyfriends and gifts. Expressions of these cuties are so good, that too when one asks the other “kahan hai smarty aaj kal?” is amazing. The voices used are very expressive and say it all.
The one emphasizing on “cash on delivery” where the elder generation dad is not ready to pay online and two guys talk about that, the pause and stare at the fellow female colleague, smartly done.
Latest one talking about, decide looking at a photo/image of the product and relating that to yesteryear marriages, is also very good. The concept, expressions, voices, costume, too good. I won’t change the channel when these ads are on.
Also the one that tells that faulty product will be replaced, using the wrong remote, so natural and happens with day to day life. So nicely done.

I think this has made an influence on Indian buyers already. I see a lot of my colleagues shopping online for books, shoes, clothes now. They select T-shirts, customize them and get it delivered to office and pay. Books are also bought online and it has cost advantage too. sometimes, if not for shopping, these websites are checked to know the new styles and brands and what suits the best with the budget. Sometimes, when these sites are browsed for checking and education purpose, some online shopping also happens.

Flipkart is not the only player in the market with a creative ad. There is zabong, myntra, so many coming up now. But I think flipkart has the first mover advantage and with its strong ad campaign with unique ads, it has grabbed the top of the mind recall space of large audience. Not just online shops, but also the ones where used items are sold, are taking a stronger portion of the shopping basket of an Indian. Looks like a picking up trend, not just with tech savvy guys, but also with normal people.

I welcome more such creative ads and enjoy watching them.

Sowmyashree Gonibeedu

The Shawshank Redemption

The only mistake I made was I read the story way before watching the movie. I heard about this movie from my colleagues who went gaga about the movie. It was on my watch wish list. ZStudio played this one few days ago.

Very simple and intelligent plot, story gets hold of you so very tightly that you would not even want to get up to pee. Every actor has underplayed their roles that you keep wanting for more. A banker gets two life sentences accused of two murders. He lives by himself in the jail in the beginning and makes his set of friends very slowly. Smart banker wins over a lot of people by helping them with a lot of things. He even wins the confidence of the warden. he understands the system there and plays with it for his benefit. Never lets out what his plan is. Does a very smart plan and escapes from the jail and had acquired enough money that he can make his future.

The movie talks about accepting changes, getting used as “institutionalized” and what it takes to make an exit from such system. All the characters are justified and are played well. Superb acting, location and hold on the complete film, that is takes you to the place where it happened and makes you part of the movie. I was completely engrossed watching this one.

I think it also carries some lessons too. It tells to take advantage of the situation, not hurry to bend it or change it, but make the best of what has happened and is irrevocable. It tells that if one is smart enough and capable then can do anything from any place or situation one is into. Am still stuck to the walls of the Shawshank prison.

Sowmyashree Gonibeedu

Routine

All of a sudden, it boils down to the point
Leads me to realization of the reality
We just have one life to live, the one we remember
Making it happy & worth living is all that matters

So much luggage on shoulders, from past to future
Junk and burden is too much, valuables is too less
So many people, but only so less of them matter
We make life tangled, twisted and complicated

Love the ones you fall for, expressing it may not matter
Let go, stop being worried, control rarely works
Smile, cherish, and be happy with what you have
Make small things matter, make each moment count

Though we know all of this in the back of our heads
Sometimes, someone has to remind it all over again
Tell something to strike these thoughts once again
And to make us live the life to the fullest

BhaShe

Alone

I wipe off rain drops from my face
For the first time in my life
I am not enjoying the most enjoyable rain drops

My smile is a light and you are oxygen
I carry my bag of life to save myself
Bag filled with memories

From nobody, I will become nobody
But the journey in-between is very rough
Passing many dangers to return to square one

I am noting but a help in your life,
Our intentions were entirely different
Only common things that matched are wrong

I have a constant headache and eye pain
It has secluded memories and deserted heart
Wherever I go, I always find myself alone.

BhaShe

Box

You said you are afraid I’ll go away
Where have you let me come close?
I am being put in a box in your heart
In your heart, but in a box, away from all

I am part of your time table
My slots are always the late ones
I don’t get what I want when I want
My waiting time for you is the longest

You say I am a special person, important
But why am I special? Am curious
What you say and what you do, differs
I think, what you think and what you do too,

It’s tough to believe you, you are flexible
Understanding your emotions, impossible
Your priorities, what you want in life,
You are the most confused and lost person

Release me from the box, make me part
Let go those fear and inhibitions
Get your priorities and people set right
Don’t run from love only because it hurts.

BhaShe

I await

I await,
Await for you to reach me

A call, a message, a note or an email
Keeping my eyes wide open
Wait for you to reach me

My hands stretch to reach to you
But I hold back, DND on your door
Do I have an option but to wait?

I do not want to disturb you
But neither had I wanted this silence
Don’t want to reach uninvited

I have reached out to you
Many times now… way too many
Now it’s time you call me

I wake up in the middle of the night
Just to see if you have had thought about me
To see any trace that tells me you missed me

Wake up imagining your smile
Pass every day recalling our glory
Go to bed with a hope, that you’ll reach me

I see you always
Both with open and closed eyes
My heart has crossed all limits

I wait for you to reach to me
And tell me you love me
And take me as yours, forever, but…

Disappointment is part of life
So is expectation and anticipation
Love, I blame it all to love!

BhaShe

Distance

The world feels empty, without you,
I feel no interest in anything
Happiness loses its charm, when you are away
Time stalls and fails to move

You have become my world now
All I think is only about you
I even hate to write this poem, am angry
I wanna throw my pen and come running to you

Loneliness had never felt so bad
I feel restless and helpless, being alone
Every second I know you are away, I miss you
I want you in my reachability perimeter

What have you done to me, my love
Why is my life so dull and lifeless without you
Just the fact that you are around, brings joy
And your absence kills me every second

BhaShe

Don’t Give Up!

Not everybody wants to break your heart
Not every girl you meet is a cheat
It’s just some wrong times, places
And people that turn situations around

No one leaves the house in the morning
Decided to fall for somebody
Sometimes it’s just the first sight
Sometimes its elongated friendship

You should not stop believing
You have all the rights to be happy
Like they say in every bollywood movie
Somebody, somewhere is made for you,

Don’t stop trying till you find the right one
You might make some mistakes in the process
As all of us are unique in our own way
Experiences with every person is unique and different

Love is bliss that some find easily, some struggle
It lives with some and just dies always with others
You never know what destiny has written for you
Don’t give up on love, my dear friend!

BhaShe

(Dedicated)

ReBirth

All those butterflies which went dead back then,
Have all gotten life and are flying in my tummy
Whatever chemical mixtures had gotten old
Are fresh and new and are working now

All those sweet things you said to me
All those sweet dreams you gave me
Have brought back a new life in me
Have made my days brighter and face shine

I thought only the skeleton of our love is left now
All the flesh and blood sucked in and gone
All that beauty turned into dust
Just a lovely memory it had become

Now I see this new you, a lot changed
Everything seems so different and better
My pale dreams are now so much more colorful
I feel like I am living a second life

Thank you for turning around my life again
It feels amazing to get new dreams everyday
I anticipate more from you, like always,
Hope this treasure of joy never gets empty.

BhaShe

Trouble

I burn because of the inability to make you mine
I burn so much that deadly gastric attacks are a child’s play now
The tears of desperation, evaporate before they reach my cheeks
That’s the kind of heat you have created in me

While I was busy admiring everything about you
You silently acquired my heart and my mind
You are the one in all my dreams, emotions and feelings
Now you have made me think “I am nothing without you”

I tease you and hurt you to keep these emotions hidden
I laugh and look away so that my eyes don’t speak to you
Inevitability tortures my decision to keep away from you
I somehow manage to behave normal in front of you

Is this feeling mutual? Your eyes never say a thing
Are you my new crush? This doesn’t look so harmless like before
All the fantasies that I thought I have gotten rid of,
Are back now, and have you in all of them

You have no idea what you do to me with your complements
You turn my life around, you mix up all my feelings
I am very simple, open book and weak hearted girl
This whole emotional mix up has ruined my life

I fail to deny my feelings or to keep you away
You are a fatal attraction, irresistible temptation
I do nothing but being at the receiving end
And hope that whatever is happening is happening for good.

BhaShe

Hide and Seek

I miss you every minute
When you are away from me
I wish you come back and surprise me
Pour in your smile into my heart

I smile not only when I see you
But also when I think about you
I don’t know you but I like you already
How am I going to hide this from you

But I hide the desire to touch you
Touch you with my finger tips
To know how it feels to touch you
To feel you from my senses

I get lost and get found in your eyes
Those eyes which tell stories
I see so much truth and purity in them
I see no hint of desire in them

I like to turn that around and see desire
I like to see fire in your eyes
I wish I could change things at the pace I like
I wish you get a hint of what I am up to

I am not a bad girl, you are a good boy
All I want is some mixture of emotions
It’s fun to play hide and seek game
Only when one is seeking the other.

BhaShe

"Dedicated" ;) to my inspiration to this poem!