Tuesday, June 23, 2009
I had a supporting shoulder fortunately. I rarely share my tears but that day, she was with me. She identified that am going to break and she took me in her hands. I had a hand to wipe my tears and ears to listen to my pain (so called, actually). I was worried about something, which I cannot do anything even if I want to.
That was not the only bad day. However, somehow the next day I realized a truth. Truth that unless I want feel bad, nothing can make me feel bad. Circumstances may push to the edge of breaking down, but if I decide not to give special attention to it, it is not hard to manage.
“NOTHING ON THIS EARTH CAN MAKE ME SAD WHEN I DECIDE TO BE HAPPY” - I wrote these words with a smiley on a paper and pinned it in my workstation. (You know we, the working crowd, spend most of our lives in office and on road. So I feel its ideal to stick this in my office than in my bedroom!!). After that day, I don't remember any day, me having a bad mood (touch wood).
Am having all wonderful days of my life in this period, may be another reason for having a smiley on my face all the time. However, I don't think that is the driver. If I had to cry, I would have found several reasons with all good things that's happening for me.
Its my decision to be happy, I know now. Hope I stick to my decision always. Even today I have those magical words hanging in front of my eyes. To cheer me up all the time.
Hello.. dear ones like me... are you listening...? Make up your mind and the world will look better each day.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
I overheard you when you were speaking about me
yesterday, the Wednesday, while having food,
I was behind you, didn't you notice?
Or is that an intentional conversation you made?
You spoke about me, you spoke about marriage,
you spoke about rethinking on your decision
Are you curious to know about me?
Are you hesitant to speak with me?
Re-look at your decision, speak to me,
its okay!!! its no one else, its “me”!!!
Come on! We are all social animals,
haven't you studied? Haven't you practiced?
Cross your boundaries, open up
your image will not collapse by this
Though I over heard am ready to speak,
I take up this initiative to stretch my hand,
I know you are not shy, you have the “guts”,
friendship is too big word to fit in this small matter
Even am curious, I want to know
am like this, please don't mind,
hope you speak, hope you share,
hope my stretched hand doesn't remain empty.
Monday, June 8, 2009
ಬದುಕಿರೋದು ಮರೆತೆ ಹೋಗುತ್ತೆ, ನಾವೂ, ಅವರೂ,
ಎಲ್ಲೋ ಥಟ್ಟನೆ ತಲೆಗೆ ಹೊಡೆದಂತೆ ನೆನಪಾಗುತ್ತೆ ಕೆಲವೊಮ್ಮೆ
ನಾವು ಮರೆತೇ ಬಿಟ್ಟಿದ್ದೆವಲ್ವ?
ಬದುಕು ಹಾಗೇ ಓಡ್ತಾನೆ ಇರುತ್ತೆ
ಹುಚ್ಚು ನಾಯಿ ಬೆನ್ನತ್ತಿದವರ ಹಾಗೆ,ದಾರಿಗಳು ಗೊತ್ತೇ ಆಗಲ್ಲ
ಕೆಲವೊಮ್ಮೆ ಬಿದ್ದು ಏಳೋಷ್ಟರಲ್ಲಿ ಕಾಲಗಲೇ ಕಳೆದು ಹೋಗಿರುತ್ತೆ
ಇರುವುದೊಂದೇ ಭೂಮಿ, ನಾಲ್ಕೇ ದಿಕ್ಕು
ಇಷ್ಟರಲ್ಲೇ ಅದೆಷ್ಟು ಕಳೆದು ಹೋಗಿರ್ತಿವಿ ನಾವು
ಮತ್ತೆ ಮತ್ತೆ ಸಂಧಿಸೋ ಮುಖಗಳು, ಕಾಡೋ ಪ್ರಶ್ನೆಗಳು
ನಾವು ನಡೆಯುತ್ತಿದ್ದೇವ, ಕಲ್ಲಾಗಿದ್ದೇವ?
ಎಲ್ಲ ಕಡೆ ಗಿರಕಿ ಹೊಡೆದು ಅಲ್ಲೇ ಬಂದು ಬೀಳತ್ತೆ ಮತ್ತೆ
ನೆನ್ನೆ, ನಾಳೆ, ಇಂದು, ಎಲ್ಲಾ ಒಂದೇ ಆಗುತ್ತೆ
ಆದರೂ ನಾವೇನೋ ದಿಗ್ವಿಜಯದ ಕುದುರೆ ಏರಿದವರಂತೆ
ಮತ್ತೊಮ್ಮೆ ಹೀಗೇ ಕಳೆದು ಹೋಗಿರುವೆ
ಮತ್ತೊಮ್ಮೆ ಹೀಗೇ ಜಾಗೃತಳಾಗಿರುವೆ
ಬದುಕು ಯಾವ ವ್ಯತ್ಯಾಸವನ್ನು ತೋರುವುದಿಲ್ಲ
At time its like this
we forget being alive, we, as well others
suddenly it flashes in mind
oh! they are alive,
alas! We had forgotten
life keeps running
as if a mad dog is back of it, loosing roads,
by the time we get up after a fall, ages pass
its a single earth, only four directions,
but we keep getting lost
we keep seeing the same faces, same questions throw up,
are we moving or standing still like a rock?
Everything roams around and comes back to it
yesterday, today, tomorrow, is all one
still we pose as if we have conquered
am lost again,
am awaken again,
life shows no difference
Please tell me if the translation conveys the same meaning of the original.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
My native is a small village in the midst of nature. It is a hobli HQ with good population, sufficient facilities and infra. It's on a state highway which is getting converted to a national highway, so soon I expect more growth at my native. Some minerals and all that are found close to my native. Am not sure what tomorrow my native would be, but today it's a heaven. Limited mobile network (only BSNL and Airtel) barely polluted air, water and lush greenery, makes it an awesome place to relax. Few tourists, un exploited natural beauty are the specialities of my native. So please do not expect any cottage, resort or anything close by. If you know someone, then your accommodation have to be their house otherwise just read my blog and imagine your self roaming around at my native and be happy.
Gonibeedu – The name has come from a demon 'Ghonasura' who ruled this place long time ago. Threatened and tortured by the demon, people of this locality prayed Shiva or Subrahmanya to kill the demon and relieve them from his clutches. So the name of the place which was Ghonasuraveedu or some thing similar retained and became 'Gonibeedu', and God Subranmanya settled here protecting the village.
Gonibeedu has 4 places to visit and it is closely located to 3 or 4 more places which are worth visiting. Here is the list:
Adi Subrahmanya Swami temple
Male Mallappana Gudda (Aane Mallappana Gudda)
Nanya Bhairaveshvara (Shishila)
Adi Subrahmanyeshwara Temple - This temple is said to be the oldest subrahmanya temple. My grandpa used to tell me that only after the prasadam from this temple reach kukke, they used to start the “rathotsava” the annual fair there.
Its a small temple built by the Hakka Bukkaraya, (Details by my grandpa) am Agrahara was build and hundreds of archers of land was given as 'umbali' to the temple. 30 – 40 families from north India came and settled down here. My ancestors were one among them. (Source again my grandpa)
Agrahara temple (as usually called by the local people) is in the banks of the river Hemavathi. A big Champak tree with flower all round th year, banyan tree, 'nagara katte' are all on the way from temple to the river.
Hemavathi river called 'yenne hole' is well suited for playing in water. In winter and summer its only 4 to 6 feet deep and great fun to play and pass time. However, in rainy season it it around 20 – 30 feet wide and 15 – 20 feet deep. With its red muddy water, it looks wild and beautiful.
You can witness some beautiful sunsets sitting on the banks of Hemavathi in the winter and summer seasons. In rainy season, it rains heavily here. (Gonibeedu is a part of Malenaadu – Heavy rain area in the southwestern part of Karnataka.)
Male Mallappana Gudda (Aane Mallappana Gudda) – The emperors of Hoysala dynasty (if am not wrong) used to raise and maintain their elephants here so it is called “Ane mallappana gudda” (Ane = Elephant)
There is a natural shivalinga on the top of this gudda. (Gudda = small hill). It is called Male Malleshwara. He is the god of rain for the surrounding villages. If we desperately need rain, all the villagers for the surrounding places come together and make prayers here. My grand pa used to tell, in their ages, even before they climb down the gudda, it would rain and they reach home wet drenched in rain. Now a days though it does not workout that way, people believe that it rains within a short period.
Gavi Gudda – this is around 12 to 15 km from Gonibeedu. There is a cave in this gudda so its called gavi gudda. (Gavi = Guhe = Cave). The main deity is of Gavi Gangadareshwara with some sub gods around. It is said that a bear used to stay around. Now due to “plantationization” of all the forest around, its very rare to find any wild animals here.
This temple is in the middle of the hill. If you wish yo climb up to reach the top, you have to climb on a huge rock and then there is a walk way. Winter mornings, when the whole of the surrounding villages are covered by mist, you feel you are the only survivors of the “pralaya” the destruction caused by rain.
Angadi – this is the place where Sala, the founder of Hoysala dynasty killed a tiger, by the order of his guru in gurukula. If you know the history of Hoysala dynasty of Karnataka well and good. You will pick the story and the location very easily, if you don't know this part of history then “go to google and find it your self”. Am not your history teacher.
This place has “Sapta Matruka Temple” (place for all 7 matru devis) and some old jain basdis and ancient hoysala style small temples. Get your food, get your water, sit and relax for a while. Its a beautiful and silent place.
Devavrunda – (group of gods) – is a place around 22 km away from Gonibeedu has a beautiful and peaceful temple and a lake. This is also a historical place but right now I don't remember the story. Will write about it after my next visit to my native. Its good to go. Cool roads with no traffic, beautiful places around, that's what you want to relax right?
Nanya Bhairaveshvara (Shishila) – this is quite far, about 30 35 km but worth visiting. Temple is small and not all that interesting, however, the Shishila peak attracts you. In this place here is no mobile network and very few houses around. So better go early and reach back early.
Shishila peak is said to be one of the highest peaks in the ghats of Charmadi and is one of the closest routes to Dharmastala. My dream was to get married on the top of Shishila peak but it didn't as my mom was against it. My next dream is to get my hubby there. Once I get him there I will write more about it.
This was all about places around my native. Pictures – am sorry right now I can't load them for you. I will keep loading them when ever I capture a worth watching picture.
Then next time you are around Mudigere, Belur, Kalasa, Horanadu, Dharmasthala, or any other place in Hassan and Chickmaglore and driving on SH 57, just look around carefully. You might see “Gonibeedu” board on your way. You might find the entrance arch of Subrahmanya temple.Catch you there.